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"Those we hold in our arms for a short time,

       we hold in our hearts forever." Author Unkown 

       

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

  

 

 

 

 

This memorial website was created to remember our dearest Austin Lee Tulley who was born in Leonardtown, Maryland on December 25, 2008 and grew angel wings on May 26, 2009. You will live forever in our memories and hearts.

 


Our letter to Austin at the funeral:

Dear Austin......our son......our little boy.......Daddy's buddy.......Mommy's Pita Boo......and most recently our little Angel. 

 

Mommy and Daddy loved the mornings; we would go into your nursery to get you up for the day, only to find you with your head at the foot of the crib and your beautiful face smiling up at us as if to say "Mommy and Daddy, look what I can do".

 

You had a love/hate relationship with your thumb.  You loved to suck your thumb, but you were so active, that you would pull your thumb out of your mouth to grab for something else and then get frustrated that your thumb was not there to suck on.

 

Not long ago, you started eating baby fruits.  You didn't like Apple Sauce (like Daddy), but you loved Bananas, Peaches, and Pears.  The process of eating amazed you.  You were wide eyed through the whole meal and grabbed the spoon trying to find your mouth to feed yourself.

 

You liked quiet time to yourself.  Mommy and Dady always wanted to hold you, but you would let us know when you had been cuddled enough.  We would then put you in your bouncy seat or your play gym and you would entertain yourself, sometimes for as much as an hour.

 

Most recently, you found your feet.  You were so determined to get those socks off, pulling and pulling with all your might until they finally came off.

 

We had many good times together yet with only 5 months to share with you, we need more.  So Mommy and Daddy have a favor to ask of you, our little angel.  With the help of our Lord, please watch over us and give us the strengh to carry on until one day we can be together....to once again, share the good times.

 

 

Gandmom's Poem for Daddy on Father's Day:

A chip off the old block.  Two peas in a pod.

That's what grandmom said when I arrived.

 

Each passing day we looked more the same,

How grandmom awed at this little game.

 

As you sat watching TV next to me;

What an amazing resemblance she could see.

 

Our time together was all to short but she  

Will always remember the tall and the short.   

   

Through grandmom's eyes only she could see   

 What a wonderful Daddy you were to me.    

 

 

 


 

We little knew that morning that God was going to call your name.

In life we loved you dearly, In death we do the same.
 It broke our hearts to lose you, you did not go alone;
for part of us went with you, the day God called you home.
 
You left us peaceful memories, your love is still our guide,
and though we cannot see you, you are always at our side.
Our family chain is broken, and nothing seems the same,
but as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again.


A Mother's Grief

You ask me how I'm feeling,
but do you really want to know?
The moment I try telling you
You say you have to go

How can I tell you,
what it's been like for me
I am haunted, I am broken
By things that you don't see

You ask me how I'm holding up,
but do you really care?
The second I try to speak my heart,
You start squirming in your chair.

Because I am so lonely,
you see, no one comes around,
I'll take the words I want to say
And quietly choke them down.

Everyone avoids me now,
Because they don't know what to say
They tell me I'll be there for you,
then turn and walk away.

Call me if you need me,
that's what everybody said,
But how can I call you and scream
into the phone,
My God, my child is dead?

No one will let me
say the words I need to say
Why does a mothers grief
scare everyone away?

I am tired of pretending
as my heart pounds in my chest,
I say things to make you comfortable,
but my soul finds no rest.

How can I tell you things
that are too sad to be told,
of the helplessness of holding a child
who in your arms grows cold?

Maybe you can tell me,
How should one behave,
who's had to follow their child's casket,
watched it perched above a grave?

You cannot imagine
what it was like for me that day
to place a final kiss upon that box,
and have to turn and walk away.

If you really love me,
and I believe you do,
if you really want to help me,
here is what I need from you.

Sit down beside me,
reach out and take my hand,
Say "My friend, I've come to listen,
I want to understand."

Just hold my hand and listen
that's all you need to do,
And if by chance I shed a tear,
it's alright if you do too.

By: Kelly Cummings

 

"Our Special Angel"

There's a special Angel in Heaven that is a part of me.

It is not where I wanted him but where God wanted him to be.

He was here but just a moment like a nighttime shining star,

and although he is in Heaven he isn't very far.

He touched the hearts of many like only an angel can do.

I would've held him every minute if the end I only knew.

So I send this special message to the heaven up above.

Please take care of my angel and send him all my love.  

 

We thought of you with love today, but that is nothing new.

We thought about you yesterday and the day before that too.

We think of you in silence we often speak your name.

Now all we have are memories and your picture in a frame.

Your memory is our keepsake, with which we'll never part.

God has you in his keeping we have you in our heart.

 

 Author: Unknown

Don't Cry Mommy

I know your heart is broken,
from the pain of losing me...
but Mommy, I’m so happy,
if only you could see.


There are angels all around me,
with flowers in their hair...
this place is filled with beauty,
God’s love is everywhere.

He spared me from the sorrow,
that your earth has come to know...
so please don’t worry, Mommy,
'cause Jesus loves me so.

The light shines brightly,
on my little angel face...
if only you could see me,
your pain would be erased.

Such happiness is waiting,
and one day you will see...
we'll finally meet in heaven,
forever, you and me.

Author Unknown

The moment that you died,
My heart was split in two,
One side filled with memories,
The other side died with you.
I often lay awake at night,
When the world is fast asleep,
And take a walk down memory lane,
With tears upon my cheeks.
Remembering you is easy,
I do it every day,
But missing you is a heartache,
That will never go away.
I hold you tightly within my heart.,
And there you will remain,
Life has gone on without you,
But it never will be the same.

 

 


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Austin sucking his thumb Austin and Mommy getting ready for bed Austin in his Kick-n-Coaster Too cool Austin Happy Baby Daddy tickling Austin It's all about ME! Austin and Daddy - 2 peas in a pod Austin and Daddy Austin and Grandmom Austin and Mommy - Austin's eating the towel Austin - what do you think he's saying? Austin and Daddy - two TV junkies Austin in his gym